Oi! 18 and livin' in Federal Way Washington. (Near Seattle) I play FFXI DDR and Halo 2. I practice Bojutsu and have been for about 3 years now. I don't post my artwork on the net, but I'll post stuff I colored for other people all the time ^^ Pretty much, if I think your art rocks, ask me to color it and i'll get it done. (someday) I play 2nd Guitar in my band Late Night Crisis. I'm told I'm good but~... that's by like, best friends and stuff, so I really have no idea My favorite band is called Mew, go check them out. I've been skateboarding for 3 years and still suck at it. I often wear a Catbell, Cat ears and a Fox tail... yea, shut up. My Fav anime of all time would have to be Fruits Basket, and my fav manga would be FLCL. I've written a book and plan to write a sequel, contact me if you'd like to read it. Starting next year I'll be going to Saint Martin's University to become a Computer Networks Administrator. Hmm... anything else? Oh, I like to sing. ... yes sing, lemme lone.
doo doo doo... why yous hurt so bad?posted Aug 9th 2005, 9:22PM
Mood: Depressed
Music: Mew - Why Are You Looking Grave
Sooo... just got back from a party (oh yea, Mt. Dew party no less.) and one would think "Oh sweet! Mt. Dew party? That must have rocked!!!" Well, yes, yes it did. except...
I saw someone there that I have been trying to avoid for quite a long time... No, it's not because I hate them, or that they annoy me... The thing is that I have been in love with her for about 4 years now... but I don't think that it will ever work. If I keep out of contact with her, I can usually push back my feelings, but every time I see her, I remember that one of my best friends is her boyfriend and that I had missed my chance several times...
I can't stand it... every time I see her I just think about how perfect she is... then I think about all the things wrong with me and why I don't deserve her. I really don't, my friend is much better suited for her, and that's why I'm not really mad at him. But... so long ago I could see me and her growing older, keeping in touch through college, just... It always hits me when I see her that it will never happen. Now I'm all depressed and stuff. Gah, I just wish I didn't love her... I've told several people how I'm "over her" or how "Yea, She's was the wrong person for me" but... none of them are every true. I think I might just say that to try and convince myself... but every time I see her it all goes away and my feelings come back...
Gah, I need to stop whining. I said I'd never cry over her and now I mean it!! I'm going off to college in 2 weeks, so that will help me forget.
*sigh* Sorry for the rent, anyone who reads this. Just kind of had to vent.
In other news, I got a new computer that owns! it owns so hard!